You cannot fully embrace the current season of your life until you let go of a past season and quit anxiously striving for the next. Be present. This thought came to me last week as I was reflecting on a couple of conversations I had with a few friends. This notion formulated as an encouragement to another but really spoke to me more than her. I honestly thought I had let go of the past season(s) but as I began to take a mental inventory of my thoughts I found that I often reverted back to what used to be. Or, used it as a measuring stick for things and people who are currently in my life. The past is the past for a reason. A relationship that once was but is no longer is because there is a need that was no longer being met. While we learn from it I think we have a tendency to hang on to notions of what once was for way too long.
On the flip side, I found myself visualizing the future. I sincerely believe that we should have hopes and dreams but not to the detriment of what we are called to do in this season of our lives. I am anxious for that husband and family but it is not where I am to be at this very moment. I know that it will happen in due (and God’s) time and I was prompted to take record of my thoughts and the amount of energy I am exerting to make my current season successful. Being transparent, when I calculated the thoughts of the past and the thoughts of the future the amount of present thoughts were very dismal in compare.
Just as I told my dear friend on the phone … “It’s okay.” It really is. I know her capacity and her mind wants to take her to places she is not called to be at the moment. My mind is reeling with the same. However, when we stop, breathe, and accept the present what a force we will be!